|
wake up call
His name was Chris.
I can't remember exactly how we met, or what it is that made us fall in love. I guess it has to do with the way he looks at me. And the way he smiles. Somehow, it makes me feel like everything is exactly where it should be. And I feel happy. Happier than I've ever been for a very long time. I feel loved.
One day, while we were driving around in his car, he gives me this look - a gaze that said everything I had secretly wished and prayed he would. I blush. Drunk with joy for having found what I thought was my one true love.
We decide to grab a bite. So he parked the car outside a cafe. As we walked over to the door, we saw this girl named Agnes.
And Chris bolted back to his car so fast he forgot to open the door for me.
Apparently, this girl Agnes was the biggest blabbermouth ever. And Chris didn't want anyone to know that we were together. While he waited for me to get in, I stood outside the car for what seemed like an hour, holding the passenger side door slightly ajar.
For the life of me, I couldn't understand why he didn't want people to know. Could it be that he has another girl? Did he think I wasn't pretty or smart enough? Was he ashamed to be seen with me? A million thoughts, each one screaming the exact same truth I've long been trying to ignore.
I closed the door ever so gently and walked away.
He didn't even run after me.
I got my wake up call.
It was 5:15 in the morning.
Thursday, September 23, 2004 @ 7:55 PM
eternal sunshine
how happy is the blameless Vestal's lot
the world forgetting by the world forgot
eternal sunshine of the spotless mind
each pray'r accepted and each wish resign'd
-Alexander Pope in Eloisa to Abelard
Wednesday, September 08, 2004 @ 3:46 PM
|
