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pakshet memo
Pag kumain kayo, maghugas kayo ng pinggan! Hindi ako tagapaglinis ng mga kalat ninyo. At wag mong isipin na porke may trabaho ka na e senyorito ka na dito! Asshole.
Kindly wash all used plates, glasses and utensils after eating. Thank you.
Tuesday, June 29, 2004 @ 1:29 PM
wHiLe YoU wErE sLeEpInG...
...pinagtripan ka namin :) 
Monday, June 28, 2004 @ 2:42 PM
cLoSuRe
I knew he was coming.
But I went anyway. Mostly because seeing him wasn't as important as saying goodbye to my friend e. But also because I thought I was strong.
See, I've always believed that I could shut him out forever. That I was strong enough to defend my self-built fortress of anger and hate. That I was tough enough to keep myself believing that I didn't care. Or that he's gay.
So I sat there. Chatting with a group of friends. Catching up on the latest gossip the Mascian branch of the grapevine had to offer. Until he came.
I'm not sure how it happened. I guess we just kept on chatting. And laughing. We talked about stuff. Ate. I made the stupid mistake of looking for beer when e's mom brought us a platter of barbeques. We had wine. And I felt the little bricks of my wall slowly crumbling down. Shortly after our second round of desserts, I was left without a barrier.
Someone came up with the brilliant idea of taking a picture. Of us. Sitting together. Close together. While people stared. And told us to sit even closer. e's aunt stood behind us and forced us to pose with our heads touching. A snapshot. Jokes. We were laughing so hard I hit my head against his. More pictures. They wanted us to sit closer. Thisclose. I told him "Sige na, ikaw naman... parang hindi naging tayo dati." So we moved a bit closer. More laughter. A click. And the bitter icicles piercing my heart slowly melted away.
Moments later, he asked me what I was doing these days, how I was doing. His voice was getting softer. He told me that it's ok to take my time and bum around for a while. That he did the same thing. That it'll be ok.
Small talk. Seemingly meaningless chitchat. Until he said "Nasa 'kin pa rin yung test tube... I kept everything."
And it hit me. I understood.
.........
I went home a different person that day.
I felt free. Happy.
I finally forgave myself for what happened. For falling in love and getting hurt.
I realized that I could only stay mad for so long. Coz after a while the hatred in my heart would start consuming my spirit too. I realized that all those years I was just being stupid. That the wall I built between us did not make me in any way stronger. It made me a bitter coward unable to trust.
I learned that no matter how badly your heart's been burned, true strength comes in being able to forgive. Sabi nga nila, pag nagmahal ka, yun na yun. Walang bawian. Touch move. Even if it doesn't work out and you guys fall out of love, hindi pa rin mawawala yung concern mo para sa kanya.
So I guess this is what it feels like to have loved and lost. Masarap palang malaman na once in your life, you had it all. And that years from now, you'll have a wonderful friend and wonderful memories to cherish.
'Stig. Pwede pa palang magkaron ng happy ending.
Monday, June 21, 2004 @ 9:44 PM
sUmMeR sUnShInE
i feel it's changing, i stay the same,
i'm a solo cello outside a chorus
i've got a secret,
it's time for me to tell
that you've been keeping me warm
just sweet beginnings and bitter endings
in coffee city, we borrowed heaven
don't give it back,
i've never felt so wanted
are you taking me home?
you tell me you have to go...
in the heat of summer sunshine
i miss you like nobody else
in the heat of summer sunshine
i kiss you, and nobody needs to know
now that you've left me,
there's no returning
i keep comparing,
you're always winning
i try to be strong but
you'll never be more wanted
will you make me at home?
don't tell me you have to go...
in the heat of summer sunshine
i miss you like nobody else
in the heat of summer sunshine
i kiss you, and nobody needs to know
to sweet beginnings and bitter endings
in coffee city, we borrowed heaven
don't give it back
winter is coming and
i need to stay warm
in the heat of summer sunshine
i miss you like nobody else
in the heat of summer sunshine
i kiss you, and nobody knows
Thursday, June 17, 2004 @ 12:54 AM
bUrN
I don't understand why
See it's burning me to hold onto this
I know this is something I gotta do
But that don't mean I want to
What I'm trying to say is that I-love-you I just
I feel like this is coming to an end
And its better for me to let it go now than hold on and hurt you
I gotta let it burn
It's gonna burn for me to say this
But it's comin from my heart
It's been a long time coming
But we done been fell apart
Really wanna work this out
But I don't think you're gonna change
I do but you don't
Think it's best we go our separate ways
Tell me why I should stay in this relationship
When I'm hurting baby, I ain't happy baby
Plus theres so many other things I gotta deal with
I think that you should let it burn
When your feeling ain't the same and your body don't want to
But you know gotta let it go cuz the party ain't jumpin' like it used to
Even though this might bruise you
Let it burn
Let it burn
Gotta let it burn
Deep down you know it's best for yourself but you
Hate the thought of her being with someone else
But you know that it's over
We know that it's through
Let it burn
Let it burn
Gotta let it burn
Tuesday, June 15, 2004 @ 12:01 AM
(this time totoo na) iVe No IdEa WhO tHeSe PeOpLe ArE
We saw harry potter and the prisoner of azkaban just a while ago. ‘Twas great.
But those really annoying guys sitting behind us almost stole the show.
Well, almost.
See, all throughout the movie, they were doing this.
Out Loud.
Totally clueless guy: Blah blah blah i-didnt-read-the-book-so-i-know-nothing-about-this-shit blah blah. Who is yaddi yadda yaddi yadda?
Know-it-all guy: Blah blah blah i-know-everything-coz-i-am-jkrowling blah blah.
Totally clueless guy: Why did yaddi yadda yaddi yadda?
Know-it-all guy: Blah blah blah i-know-everything-coz-i-am-jkrowling blah blah.
Totally clueless guy: Well, how come yaddi yadda yaddi yadda?
Know-it-all guy: Blah blah blah i-know-everything-coz-i-am-jkrowling blah blah.
Totally clueless guy: So, where are yaddi yadda yaddi yadda?
Know-it-all guy: Blah blah blah i-know-everything-coz-i-am-jkrowling blah blah.
Then came the part where harry and sirius and the dementors were at the lake.
Know-it-all guy: Pare, mamamatay na yata sila. (or something like that)
Totally clueless guy: Oo naman pare. Higupin ba naman yung balat mo sa mukha e! Hehehe!
Credits. Eto ang talagang pamatay.
Know-it-all guy: Blah blah blah Tom Riddle blah blah.
Totally clueless guy: Ano?! Tomb Raider?
Know-it-all guy: Tom Riddle.
Totally clueless guy: Ahh, Tomb Raider...
Sunday, June 06, 2004 @ 10:11 PM
gUsTo Ko NaNg TuMaBa!
ay, mali pala.
gUsTo Ko NaNg MaG-gAiN nG wEiGhT!
ayon sa aking source e magkaiba daw yun. kaya habang nagnenet e nagresearch ako. ito daw ang formula.
1 cup skim milk
3 eggs
2 containers of plain fat free yogurt
a banana or any other fruit for flavour
shyet. 3 eggs? sa isang basong protein shake?
shyet talaga. parang hindi yata mashadong masarap. pede bang ice cream na lang?
Tuesday, June 01, 2004 @ 11:41 PM
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