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aN hOmAgE tO jAx'S aNd DiOnNe'S bLoG
YAHOO!!!
its finally over. and dahil mej happy na ko today and wala na ang headache (at heartache) ko, gusto ko rin magpasalamat sa lahat ng pipol who went through the past week with me.
salamat.
to jacqui
for always making us feel welcome sa house nyo. for sharing with us the simple joys of jalapeno corned beef and steamy rice with butter and garlic powder and chili sauce. for adding spice and laughter to an otherwise boring task.
to dionne
for being masipag. and goal oriented. and honest. and boycrazy. for listening to stupid stories of my nonexistent lovelife. for understanding my mood swings and hyperconniption fits.
to euncus
for letting us stay in your home/s. for being ever so matakaw. for always having something to eat. and for always sharing it with us. sorry ha. if we made you cry. stressed out lang talaga tayong lahat. pero tapos na yun. love ka pa rin namin.
to piapot
for all the lunch outs. for always being a friend. kahit hindi na kita groupmate. (buti na lang nanjan ka, kasi pag sila jaki and dion kasama ko, nadadamay ako sa diet nila.) see you sa baguio.
to jumyr
for sticking it out with us kahit na harsh kami sa yo. for understanding the crazy little kikay girls in us. for everything.
to jeff
for being there.
to carol
for eight freakin years. for giving me the chance to get to know the real you... nababasa mo pa ba to?
to wobbie, risle, reggae, therese and may
for letting us use your pc's. and letting us crash in your house. and poisoning the rats just so we could have an americas-funniest-home-videos moment. for always making us feel welcome.
to aj
for not haunting me, kahit na once lang ako nakadalaw sa yo.
to **, and *****, and rob thomas, and that maroon 5 guy
for all the sexy/weird dreams, and the sweet sunday mornings.
so there.
Tuesday, March 30, 2004 @ 11:29 PM
iTaGo Na LaNg NaTiN sHa Sa PaNgAlAnG eUnCuS...
youd think you know her well enough.
but then you realize youre wrong.
see, just this weekend, i found out that she used to own LEGGINGS. you know, the tight-fitting ones that have those weird little loop-thingies that you wear inside your shoes around your heels.
yup.
and she actually WORE them.
LEGGINGS.
rED leggings.
red DEMIN leggings.
red STRETCHABLE demin leggings.
red stretchable CURDUROY demin leggings.
(ok, so maybe i made up that last line. but still...)
nine years.
and you never even knew she had skeletons in her closet.
until know.
@ 10:24 PM
cRoSsRoAdS
[pagpasensyahan ang corny na title.]
someone once told me that i will, one day, get to know a person well enough that i would have to decide if i want to keep him in my life or if i should just let him go and move on.
my friends and i were talking about this the other day at mcdonalds. and true enough, theres this person i felt unsure about.
yup. i said UNSURE.
coz i dont really know if i want him to stay. but somehow, the idea of simply ditching him seemed way to harsh.
i guess its because hes not exactly someone youd want to have for the rest of your life. heck, hes not even the type of person youd be thrilled to spend a couple of hours with. hes just too difficult, too manipulative... too unkind.
ive often tried to convince myself that theres actually something good about him. there has to be, right? but then everytime i try to remember a single happy moment that we shared, my mind always comes up with broken promises and regret.
and i couldn't help but think that all those years we spent together were just wasted time.
Saturday, March 20, 2004 @ 9:49 AM
gIvIn Up On You
ive always thought we were invincible. ive always believed that what we have was the kind of bond that could weather any storm.
ive actually imagined it a zillion times before. we would grow old. yet, somehow, we'd still manage to stay together. like we always have.
but then again, i could be wrong.
and while i could simply shrug this off and move on, the lump in my throat reminds me that years from now, i would probably look back and regret ever humming this song.
*****
silent and quiet
again my life
far from these moments
i wish i was
passion and truth
we were about
before the shadows
stole the beat of our hearts
after all we have been through
i can only look at you
through the eyes you lied to
im givin up, givin up
im givin up on you
after all if there is no way out
if you cannot stand beside me
if there isnt love
there is only pride
im givin up, im givin up this fight
undo this leash
you say tied
when only our fears are to blame this time
and what am i to you
just spit it out
im not afraid of the words that you hide
after all we have been through
i can only look at you
through the eyes you lied to
im givin up, givin up
im givin up on you
after all if there is no way out
if you cannot stand beside me
if there isnt love
there is only pride
im givin up, im givin up this fight
where do we go
where did it all crash
when did it start to fall apart
silence and quiet
passion, the truth
shadows, only shadows
after all we have been through
i can only look at you
through the eyes you lied to
im givin up, givin up
im givin up on you
after all if there is no way out
if you cannot stand beside me
if there isnt love
there is only pride
im givin up, im givin up this fight
Monday, March 15, 2004 @ 11:18 PM
sUnDaY mOrNiNg
sunday morning rain is falling
steal some covers share some skin
clouds are shrouding us in moments unforgettable
you twist to fit the mold that i am in
but things just get so crazy living life gets hard to do
and I would gladly hit the road get up and go if a knew
that someday it would lead me back to you
that someday it would lead me back to you
that may be all i need
in darkness she is all i see
come and rest your bones with me
driving slow on sunday morning
and i never want to leave
fingers trace your every outline
paint a picture with my hands
back and forth we sway like branches in a storm
change the weather still together when it ends
that may be all i need
in darkness she is all i see
come and rest your bones with me
driving slow on sunday morning
and i never want to leave
and you may not know
that may be all i need
in darkness she is all i see
come and rest your bones with me
driving slow...
Sunday, March 14, 2004 @ 2:21 PM
jUsT sO yOu KnOw
it was never like this before. really.
i used to blog about virtually any topic. and it has never, EVER turned into such a brouhaha .
until now.
and it makes me really sad to realize that somehow, i just cant be as honest with you guys as i used to be.
Friday, March 12, 2004 @ 10:49 AM
cOoL oFf
i was just about to blog sumthin.
but then i thought "uh-oh, issue na naman to."
so there.
wala na munang blog.
darn.
@ 2:05 AM
dArE tO dReAm
txt msg no.1 : hoy panget! number ko...
it was about ten in the morning. i was still kinda groggy from the looooooong ride to whereever it was we went to. and this person has the nerve to call me panget! heller!
reply no. 1 : panget ka din! cno ka?
txt msg no.2 : ngark! meron pa bang tumatawag sa yong panget sa ganda mong yan? :)
ok. ill have to admit that this one made me smile. actually, this message just made my day. but now im confused. this couldnt possibly be my brother. i mean, he calls me panget, but he never calls me pretty afterwards. hmmm... who could this be?
and then it hit me.
OH. MY. GOSH.
it could be this guy ive been crushing on! (insert huge smile and starry-eyed expression) or, it could be this OTHER guy ive been crushing on!!! (insert bigger smile and starry-eyed expression) im telling you people, being called panget has never felt sooo darn good.
at this point, i was about to txt back. i was actually choosing between "hey there. im really sorry i missed your sisters concert last night. hope you had fun though..." and "wazzzup? how's the bald head goin?" but alas, wala na pala kong load. it must be some sort of cosmic conspiracy thing. so ayun, hindi ako nakapagreply.
a few hours later...
txt msg no.3 : di ka na nagreply. nainis ka na yata. patrick to.
NYEK! badtrip. badtrip. BADTRIP TALAGA. as in! it was the sort of badtrip that makes you wanna scream PAKSHET!!!
man, i was really hoping it would be one of those really cute and witty guys.
pero hinde.
mali ako.
why, lord, why?
Wednesday, March 10, 2004 @ 10:24 PM
eUnIcE, eTo Na...
sometimes, i wish i had a really private blog. you know, the kind na mababasa lang ng super close friends mo (na pwede mong itrust with your thoughts) or ng complete strangers na never mong mamimeet. la lang. sometimes may mga things that i want to say/write down pero hindi pwede...
in other news:
i was staring at this really cute guy ive been crushing on the other day when i suddenly realized na mas bagay sila nung isa kong friend. as in. they'd make a beautiful couple. they both have this peaches-and-cream thing going.
darn.
anyways, that same day, i felt na this OTHER guy ive also been crushing on does not like me. at all.
ok. i take it back. so maybe he does like me a teeny little bit. but not in the i-wanna-marry-you-and-make-babies kind of way. it seems, mahilig lang talaga shang mangulit.
argh.
where, oh where, has cupid gone these days?
@ 1:16 AM
cHiTcHaTs
i was chatting with my friends earlier and i realized that i am not a very socially skilled person. ewan ko ba, hindi lang yata talaga ko mahilig makipagsosyalan. i think it has to do with me having some sort of shell. para kasing hindi madali for me to open up to people. lalo na pag di ko mashado kilala. parang nakakatamad magexert ng effort to get to know them... parang okey na ko dahil meron naman na kong friends...
sabi nga ni dionne, dapat daw ienjoy namin ang pagiging single adults. we should go out on dates.
with lots of different people.
with lots of different people at the same time.
now if only someone would ask...
hehehe... meron ka bang kilala (wink, wink)? tell him hindi naman ako intimidating...
basta dapat taller than me ha, saka cute, saka smart, saka mabait, saka ...
aaaahkkk, was i just pimping myself?
two words.
rock.
bottom.
Tuesday, March 02, 2004 @ 2:59 PM
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