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sNaPpInG oUt Of It
i have an exam in thermo tomorrow.
but right now im still lost in daydreams -- fantasizing about a guy I barely even know… planning weddings that would probably never even occur...
i guess this thing about crushes and romance just doesnt work well for me. coz even if it gives me that warm, giddy feeling down deep, its still too much of a distraction. too much of a risk.
with our plant design and 136 and the board exams coming up, i definitely dont have much time left to sleep. much less spend with another person in the backseat of his car doing god-kows-what.
im alone. but im not lonely.
or so this girl in the juice ad said.
but come to think of it, i might actually be better off this way.
for now at least.
Saturday, February 28, 2004 @ 12:56 PM
tHiNgS iL nEvEr SaY
im tugging at my hair
im pulling at my clothes
im trying to keep my cool
i know it shows
im staring at my feet
my cheeks are turning red
im searching for the words inside my head
cause im feeling nervous
trying to be so perfect
cause I know youre worth it
youre worth it
yeah
if i could say what i want to say
id say i wanna blow you... away
be with you every night
am i squeezing you too tight
if i could say what i want to see
i want to see you go down
on one knee
marry me today
guess, im wishing my life away
with these things ill never say
it dont do me any good
its just a waste of time
what use is it to you
whats on my mind
if it aint coming out
were not going anywhere
so why cant i just tell you that i care
cause im feeling nervous
trying to be so perfect
cause I know youre worth it
youre worth it
yeah
if i could say what i want to say
id say i wanna blow you... away
be with you every night
am I squeezing you too tight
if i could say what i want to see
i want to see you go down
on one knee
marry me today
guess, im wishing my life away
with these things ill never say
whats wrong with my tongue
these words keep slipping away
i stutter, i stumble
like ive got nothing to say
cause im feeling nervous
trying to be so perfect
cause i know youre worth it
youre worth it
yeah
guess im wishing my life away
with these things ill never say
if i could say what i want to say
id say i wanna blow you...away
be with you every night
am i squeezing you too tight
if i could say what i want to see
i want to see you go down
on one knee
marry me today
yes, im wishing my life away
with these things ill never say
these things ill never say
@ 1:21 AM
gIdDy
been feeling a bit giddy these past few days.
maybe it because of the hormones.
or maybe its just the girl in me acting up again... i dunno.
i seem to be going through a really kikay phase. i mean, i even had boy-thoughts about this not-so-cute-but-really-witty guy at school.
err...
definitely the hormones.
Friday, February 27, 2004 @ 1:04 AM
tHiNgS i WaNnA dO
play badminton.
learn photography.
take up cooking lessons.
learn how to sing.
do carpentry.
sketch.
bake like a pro.
learn how to sew real dresses.
fiddle with a guitar or violin.
dance.
go hiking.
climb walls.
play paintball.
backpack throughout europe.
have my own house.
and car.
surf.
learn how to swim.
try out different kinds of food.
watch concerts.
Saturday, February 21, 2004 @ 9:00 PM
nEw FoOd PlAcEs To ViSiT
1. mahn hann
2. jumbo japs
3. yellow cab
4. super bowl of china
5. pho hoa
Thursday, February 19, 2004 @ 1:29 PM
sHoPpInG
i went to u.p. this afternoon to meet with the guy who makes orgshirts.
after that, i decided to drop by the pnb to encash the check from the car raffle. it was only 330 pm. so i went there and confidently pushed open the glass door. woah! it wouldnt budge. i pushed again. it still wouldn't move. then this really sarcastic-looking security came out and asked me what i wanted. so i told him i wanted to encash my check. and with a smirk on his face, he told me that bank hours are only from 9 to 3. THREE?! who the hell stops working at three? it's supposed to be a "nine to five" right? but three?
by this time i was already kinda depressed. coz aside from that really rude security guard, there were also several people who saw me pushing hard on the glass door.
so i went to sm to do a "bit" of shopping.
and just like that, my day was perfect once again.
@ 12:37 AM
nInEtY eIgHt PoUnDs
i weighed myself when i woke up this morning. ninety eight pounds.
fine.
so maybe im not really losing weight afterall.
but why do i still look like my cheeks are caving in?
Wednesday, February 18, 2004 @ 11:16 AM
sTiCk FiGuRe
i havent been able to sleep much for the last couple of days, and the stress of having to deal with life is really starting to take its toll on me. i seem to be losing more weight, and somehow i dont think its just because i have braces on. my clothes dont seem to fit well anymore. and the bones on my shoulders are sticking out in a weird, melissa-ish way.
honestly, im quite bothered. scared even.
kapayatan. nakakatakot.
Tuesday, February 17, 2004 @ 10:44 PM
tWeNtYtWo
i just turned twenty two.
and i realized that it wasnt as scary as i thought it would be.
in fact, i was really happy. giddy happy. i was doing this skip/walk thing i do whenever im excited over stuff.
so i guess i got over my fears of graduating and finding a job and having more responsibilities and growing old as a spinster... for a day at least.
Sunday, February 15, 2004 @ 11:05 AM
wHeReFoRe ArT tHoU lAwReNcE
five days till valentines.
yup.
still dont have a date.
youd think Id get used to this by now.
darn.
so maybe rob Thomas was too much to ask for.
but isnt this guy Lawrence even gonna call?!
i guess not...
crappy title.
Sunday, February 08, 2004 @ 11:43 PM
...
it's been awhile.
Saturday, February 07, 2004 @ 7:37 PM
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